at his Cardiologist’s this morning after weeks of begging him to go after he complained of pain in his chest, and woke up with a heavy feeling in his chest this morning. I had to threaten him that he had 2 choices: he could either go willingly or I would allow myself to reach the point where I premeditatedly put myself between my executive brain and my dissociative state. In this altered state I have superhuman strength and can’t feel pain, like a cornered animal fights, or those moms in tabloid stories of them lifting cars off their babies that are absolutely true. Back in the day, the specialists in the field used to call it “The Hulk Syndrome”, but dropped that cavalier moniker a few years later as they learned more about how serious the disorder is, and the name was offensive to those of us who try to survive living with this curse. Pops has witnessed this transformation many times and knew I was serious reaching that state and picking him up and forcing him to go. He chose wisely and let me take him to the ER.
I’ve made no bones here about the fact I’ve been an atheist since my early teens. But today I asked the Catholic god to make sure Pops is ok. Additionally, I asked a few other favorite gods and goddesses from the 16,000 organized religions we have discovered exist or existed in human history for the same.
So I’m asking Den members, to whichever god you pray to, keep my Pops in your thoughts today. I get a feeling about these things, and like my mother and 2 uncles who faced long odds in similar instances, I have the feeling that he’s gonna be ok. I just want to cover all possible bases.
I appreciate it. They say there are no atheists in foxholes. Well in my case, it’s not a lack of courage or fear of death in my foxhole, it’s just being prudent due to the fact that god is unknowable, and I’m using the scientific method applied to the anti science of beliefs in the supernatural.
Thank you - Todd
I’ve made no bones here about the fact I’ve been an atheist since my early teens. But today I asked the Catholic god to make sure Pops is ok. Additionally, I asked a few other favorite gods and goddesses from the 16,000 organized religions we have discovered exist or existed in human history for the same.
So I’m asking Den members, to whichever god you pray to, keep my Pops in your thoughts today. I get a feeling about these things, and like my mother and 2 uncles who faced long odds in similar instances, I have the feeling that he’s gonna be ok. I just want to cover all possible bases.
I appreciate it. They say there are no atheists in foxholes. Well in my case, it’s not a lack of courage or fear of death in my foxhole, it’s just being prudent due to the fact that god is unknowable, and I’m using the scientific method applied to the anti science of beliefs in the supernatural.
Thank you - Todd
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